The animal that lurks beneath us all

Dear Diary,

I decided to give Jeremy another chance. Fuck—Ryan! I really meant to say Ryan. Anyway, I decided to give Ryan a chance.

He said he was busy and “the nature of [his] work means he can’t always be transparent with me”, like he works in the fucking CIA or something. Still, I guess he’s working with sensitive artists and Ryan doesn’t know me well enough to be sure I can keep a secret. All in all, it can’t hurt to give him another chance...so long as I don’t get too attached and fall for his flattery.

Besides, I’m horny. So horny. There’s no polite way to put it; I want his dick inside me. I need him.

I can’t have just anyone. I need the buildup, the anticipation. I need to feel him wanting me, the animal that lurks beneath us all. I want everything. I want to give in to it all. I want him to cum in my face and spit in my mouth and push my face into his asshole. 

Hopefully sex with him is good and he doesn’t cum fast or something lame like that.

That would be such a disappointment.

-XO