Accidental Crush.

Ok, so I know I said I don’t have time for men who don’t pay me. And I have been on a pretty good streak a part from my love affairs abroad (which, let’s be honest has been quite frequent). But...I hate to admit, I have met someone. Well, by met someone I mean I have gone a couple dates and have been chatting frequently. I am hesitant because the emotional energy necessary to dive into someone that I may, potentially, perhaps, by accident, I don’t know… LIKE… it takes a lot. And now being the New Yorker I am, on track, achieving my goals, planning for the long-term, I cannot afford to have anyone take that away, I can’t afford to be swayed off my course. But It happened. He approached me at this conference, shy, sweet, hesitant, and really trying to be that ‘nonchalant, cool, I don’t really care, but hey here is my card’ type of vibe. It was more endearing than annoying fuckboi. So I accepted and contacted. We went out on a date and it was lovely, he is an absolute gentlemen and so sexy! I honestly have not been with someone this chivalrous in a while. He walks street side, opens up the door for me every time, and gets out of his car to greet me and to say goodbye. Perhaps it’s this old school way of treating a lady that has my knees weak, but we shall see soon enough. For now, I will take the loveliness for what it is and be patient in the meantime, non-expectant, and no assumptions. He is who he is, we are enjoying our time and I should keep a part of myself reserved...we all know what it’s like to give it all and be greatly disappointed. And to be real with you, I am tired of being disappointed, hence why I have not allowed myself to date since my last partner a year ago. But you can be let down if you don’t let them lift you up...right?